Thursday, September 23, 2010

So I guess I'm not Waiting any more

I started this blog to blog what I did while I put my focus off of looking for a job on to more exciting things. But now I found a job. That was a lot shorter than I thought it would be. So is this my job blog now? I don't know.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Cooking and Colors

So not concentrating so much on looking for a job has created time to just be me. And when you're done with college and you've actually learned to play the violin to an artistic fulfilling sort of satisfaction (meaning I'll never arrive where I want to be, but I play for pleasure and art and that's beautiful) and you're not sure what you're going to do with the rest of your life, you invite new things in that you once didn't have time or creative energy for.

As you all know I've always hated cooking. Nate's the chef, and a good one. He cooked. I cleaned. Worked perfectly. He loved it. I loved it. But he's been super busy with the busy season of home improvement sales (Home Depot) and I've been bored. And creatively unfulfilled, which leaves a big vacuum. Maybe it was also Gordon Ramsay's Master Chef television series, or even Kitchen Nightmares (could that inspire someone to cook?). Or maybe it was when my first issue of Real Simple came in the mail (a birthday present from Nate - mag sub about anything from fashion to food and SOOO interesting) and it had about 10 full color spreads of four weeks of menus and shopping lists. So I jotted down what I would need for 3 meals (I figured that would easily stretch to 5 or more for us) and Nate picked them up in our weekly shopping trip. (Yes, he also does the grocery shopping. What a guy, huh?) I made sure all meals centered around the same meat, which we already had. The best part? These meals are super easy and fast, super healthy and somewhat exotic, so they're way more fun that the meatloaf and potato you might have grown up with. Such as greek meatballs with feta and tomatoes and cukes. And some kid of exotic taco that I'm going to make tonight. And everything is drizzled with lemon juice and olive oil and you feel very good after you eat it. 

So I finally got bitten with a cooking bug. But I'm not going to be cooking for any large crowds or anything you know? Not just yet. Just havin' fun in my kitchen for Nate and I.

I've enjoyed reading some design blogs about graphic design, interior design and beauty and fashion. Actually if anyone knows any good ones about beauty and fashion, that would be great. Here's a list of sites and blogs I follow:

There you go. Beauty, interior design, all kinds of design. And Emily Henderson's blog also doubles as a fashion blog since she picks up so much inspiration from the world of fashion.

Also check out my new design blog! :)

Where you can see some great spaces and read about my new love affair with the color purple. (Especially when mixed with taupes and greys).

Have a lovely colorful week!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

So Tuesday and Wednesday were two good days. And here's why.

Tuesday I took this online assessment that was to qualify you to work at home as a customer sales rep. It was very cool and very well done. And they had these fake customer phone calls and you had to try to answer them. You had to prove how tech savvy you were by finding the right links and tabs to answer their question, and you had to choose answers and it was really fun to see their reactions. If you picked the wrong answer, they'd get angry. If you picked the right one, they'd calm down. And I got a really good sense of what it would be like to work from home like that and it was very cool. So while I was dreaming about that....

I got an mail from an advertising agency in Lancaster (Dean Design) requesting an interview!!! I was so excited to hear back from them cause I had given up. So that was a little more exciting than the phone thing, but I was still excited about them, as I am a very impressionable distractable person. So I was thinking, hmmmm, these are two very exciting opportunities. But of course one is much smart and more exciting and more creative than the other. So I think if I shall have to pick between the two of them, I shall know which one to choose.

The next day, in keeping with my stop-looking-for-a-job-but-start-networking plan, I went to my first Mechanicsburg Business Women's Luncheon. And to my surprise, I LOVED it. I met one cool chic named Rachel Strella, and she might have some interesting connections for me to start my new business. And I also met the editor of Harrisburg Mag.

And in the evening I went to a quarter auction - which I've never done before. And it turned out to be a weird sort of Bingo, which I've also never done before. And I spent three whole dollars of quarters (haha, bit of sarcasm there) throwing quarters into a cup and holding up my paddle but of course my number was never called so I didn't win the Avon mani-pedi deluxe kit (that's what I was praying I would win) and I didn't win the pink necklace or the tea basket or the bronzer and brush from Skincare Makeup or the Perfectly Nude Eyeshadow Collection from the same company. That's a lot of quarters (not really). And I didn't have anything to donate or display either, but it was fun and we shall see if I go again. Hmmm....we shall see.

So what is on my mind this morning?.....hmm....I'd love to redo tres chic's website. That's what I'm thinking.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Here's to a lady with great design style

Emily is beautiful inside and out and her interior design inspires me. Interior design always ends up inspiring my graphic design. Thank you for sharing these photos, Emily.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Yes two in a Day

Because I have an interview on Monday and have to tell people (if indeed there are any people yet reading this blog) about it.

I am very excited about it. But also realistically unexcited. And if it works out, Thank you Kathy Hettinga.


My Real Life

My post yesterday was about Josh Groban's song, Hidden Away. I could relate to it because I feel hidden right now.

And today in the Holy Bible I read the words, "Set your sights on the realities of heaven...for you died to this life, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God." The words of Scripture, like they often do, catch you off guard, startle you, rearrange your thinking, perspective and priorities. So here I am feeling like I am totally in a valley of creativity and activity (meaning there is little creativity and activity) and wondering what good I'm doing anyone or anything and I'm reminded that my REAL LIFE is hidden, like a precious secret and treasure, inside of Jesus Christ. So if you believe those sorts of things then, what's happening that my five senses can see is not what's REALLY happening. Which sounds sort of crazy, but hey, who am I to argue with God? And it's a good thing that what's REALLY happening in my REAL LIFE isn't only what I see with my eyes right now. Cause right now I'm wearing pink socks and brown leather shoes, which is not how I would dress if anything important was going on today. It's more of a reminder that I don't care how I look because nothing important IS happening today. Not even the manicure I so happily scheduled. I had to cancel that because I realized I had just cut all my nails off violin-player style and there was not much to manicure. So anyway, what's really going on in the cosmos and in my life and in eternity because of my life is entirely different than this quiet, partly untidy house and the obnoxious pink socks with pink spots.

Of course God doesn't intend for us to stay in the valleys. I know that. I've always come out of them. So I'm looking forward to the next  climb. Which will happen because God is awesome.

And don't think I'm just sitting here in the valley either waiting for something magical to happen. I'm not. On Wednesday I'm going to a new business meeting and feeling things out. And I have a few other ideas up my sleeve.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Rescued by a Song

So it's my first day at home after three weeks of a temp assignment. And I'm thinking, yeah I can do this. I can be at home and do this not looking for a job thing. And meeting with people and spending some time thinking and praying and finding useful and fun things to do - such as volunteering or spending more time with friends or networking groups.

And by 2:00 in the afternoon I was like, "I can't do this." I want to apply for every job I see. I want to walk the Carlisle Pike and apply for jobs. But I don't. Cause I'm tired of that.

And then I saw a link to Josh Groban's new single "Hidden Away", and clicked on it and listened to the song. Songs are good. They make the world seem alive when it seems very dead. 

So my ideas are: giving piano and violin ideas, writing, blogging, freelancing. Making soap and selling it at flea markets. Buying things on flea markets and reselling on ebay. That would be fun.

And I'm all over the place and am having trouble being quiet inside and resting. 

So soon I'll do some of the not so lonely things. Like meeting with friends and volunteering or something.

And trusting that the way will be made for me.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

That perches in the soul

And sings the tune
Without the words
And never stops at all.

As any of you who know know.

But I can't blog when my house needs cleaning, soooo

I'll be back.

Better. At least the downstairs is vacuumed and dusted and the laundry is on its way etc.

So anyway I'm unemployed. And it's been a rocky road. Four months plus of looking, applying, rewriting resumes and cover letters, doing temp work, and riding a roller coaster nowhere fast. And looking back over the last fourmonths, I realize it's all I've done. I haven't accomplished anything else.

And I also realize I'm paralyzed. I honestly don't know what to do next. The only jobs that contact me are the ones where I end up hearing, "sorry, overqualified." So why don't the other ones, the ones I'm not overqualified for, get back to me?

Well OK, one or two have. In State College and Philadelphia.

I can't move. My job has to be here in the economically overdriven happy city of Harrisburg, which, as you all know, has a very progressive driven innovative vibe.

So do I start my own thing? Freelance? Or pick another career direction to follow with all my heart, such as accounting or cosmetology? To clarify - I haven't only been looking for graphic designs. Graphic design jobs are only a handful of the jobs I've applied for, as there aren't many graphic design jobs in Harrisburg right now. Problem is, it's the majority of experience and education on my resume. And when employers see it, they say, "Sorry, you'll just leave as soon as you find a graphic design job."

And I say "No I won't! Stop that. Don't tell me what I'm going to do. Or, ok, maybe I WOULD leave if I found a graphic design job, but that won't happen for years. I'm sure. You gotta believe me." Voice trails off in confusion. OK I don't actually say all that, but you get the idea.

One company said I was overqualified. I was temping for this company. Guess what they did? Got a temp to fill in the position I applied for until they find the right one. I'm thinking, I'm already temping here. What about me? Cause my temp assignment was done that day.

If I didn't need money, I would just scribble on my Wacom tablet and upload designs to Vista and istock.

But I do, people, I do. And I'm not just a designer.

I can't lie and say I'm NOT a designer. I don't think I can remove every evidence of design from my resume, but you can be a designer and an accountant, or IT technician. Just like you can be a musician and a retail clerk. Or a writer and a teacher. That's life.

But right now, I'm lost, cause nobody will give me a chance to be any of those things.